Real Dirty Deeds

I was following someone on Twitter and was friends with them on Facebook. Before we start this story you must know that years ago we had a thing. After they moved, we drifted apart romantically but stayed friends through Facebook. Recently, this person started dating someone else. I have no issue with this because I've moved on as well and what we had wasn't THAT serious, we just sent pictures and texted. We actually only saw each other once at Walmart in passing.

I check my Twitter often and am constantly on Facebook. I noticed that I wasn't getting their updates lately and decided to do some detective work. I have close to a thousand friends on Facebook so I can't readily notice if someone removes me and I typed in their name. It showed that we weren't friends. I repeated this on Twitter and the same thing happened. This made me sad. I know that sometimes I get pretty overbearing but I haven't spoken to this person in a while except through mentioning them on Twitter and responding.

What bugs me more than being removed is that they blocked me from following them again. I understand if they don't want to speak to me but blocking me means that they do not want any contact from me at all. This makes me think that I've done something wrong. I bug them in a way that I can't comprehend. If I bug someone, I would like for them to tell me what I'm doing wrong. I understand that some people don't like me but I know what about me it is that makes them not want my company.

I suppose this little rant is that if you don't like me, tell me why. Tell me what it is that bugs you so I can try to change it. If it pisses you off, it probably makes other people mad too. I know that there are some people that just don't get along and I get that. I would still like to know that though. Even if we don't reconcile our differences and aren't friends, we will understand each other.

I know that I piss people off. I know that I'm actually really annoying. I know these things because people tell me. Without you, without my friends (past and present) I wouldn't be who I am today. I have changed some of my ways because I have bugged people. I want to become a better person and I want to become someone that you want to know.