Real Dirty Deeds

I was following someone on Twitter and was friends with them on Facebook. Before we start this story you must know that years ago we had a thing. After they moved, we drifted apart romantically but stayed friends through Facebook. Recently, this person started dating someone else. I have no issue with this because I've moved on as well and what we had wasn't THAT serious, we just sent pictures and texted. We actually only saw each other once at Walmart in passing.

I check my Twitter often and am constantly on Facebook. I noticed that I wasn't getting their updates lately and decided to do some detective work. I have close to a thousand friends on Facebook so I can't readily notice if someone removes me and I typed in their name. It showed that we weren't friends. I repeated this on Twitter and the same thing happened. This made me sad. I know that sometimes I get pretty overbearing but I haven't spoken to this person in a while except through mentioning them on Twitter and responding.

What bugs me more than being removed is that they blocked me from following them again. I understand if they don't want to speak to me but blocking me means that they do not want any contact from me at all. This makes me think that I've done something wrong. I bug them in a way that I can't comprehend. If I bug someone, I would like for them to tell me what I'm doing wrong. I understand that some people don't like me but I know what about me it is that makes them not want my company.

I suppose this little rant is that if you don't like me, tell me why. Tell me what it is that bugs you so I can try to change it. If it pisses you off, it probably makes other people mad too. I know that there are some people that just don't get along and I get that. I would still like to know that though. Even if we don't reconcile our differences and aren't friends, we will understand each other.

I know that I piss people off. I know that I'm actually really annoying. I know these things because people tell me. Without you, without my friends (past and present) I wouldn't be who I am today. I have changed some of my ways because I have bugged people. I want to become a better person and I want to become someone that you want to know.

Done with Class

At least for the semester. Now that school is done with, I can stop having an ulcer because of stress and relax for a while. My 21st birthday is coming up soon. May 28th. It's a Saturday. The really sad thing is that I don't like to drink so I'm not sure how that day will play out. As for fall semester, I have Written communications, Speech, and Race, Ethnicity, and Diversity. I hope I don't get too worried about the two writing classes. I hear the instructor for Speech is really hard. The only thing though, I think that my grammar and spelling are rather remarkable. I have a feeling that I'll be fine.

I love you. All of you.

Dane :)

Mystery Box

I got a mystery box in the mail today. Inside was:
2 CD's from bands nobody has heard of. One of them from 1988. The other from 2001.
A picture of a guy holding the CD from 1988 with writing on it that says "I paid 1$ for this!"
A WD40 handout
one of those holders for fries and other finger food.
A really cool t-shirt size XS
A DVD called Snow Snow for Lucy
The Gamecube game Alien Homonid.
Stickers.

I am in love.....With you :)

Betch

Work just put up these new poles in the backroom allegedly to keep us from hitting the corners with pallets and carts. I think they're for nut shots. I wasn't paying attention and BAM! I'm on the ground in pain that compares to childbirth. I'm kind of glad though, because I don't want children anyway......

You Could Have Been

You could have been everything.
You could have been mine.
But you decided to end it. You made the choice for us both. Now, we live with that choice. I still <3 you. Always and forever.

-Dane

Weird Music Videos pt. 3

This video is NOT SAFE FOR WORK!!!!! It's by a band called Dir En Grey and it's really jacked up. You SHOULD NOT WATCH if you throw up easily, or get scared by creepy, weird, and offensive things. Seriously.

What?!!!!?

Today's rant is brought to you by those that get offended when I ask them a question about something they posted on Facebook or Twitter. The person I'm talking about will probably read this so I won't be that specific. It was not their intention to offend me and that is why they have not been met with retaliation. Also, this has occurred more than once, causing this rant.

I read a post about someone having a life changing experience. They did not state what it was but they were specific enough to warrant a question.Out of respect for this person, I won't say exactly what the post said but it was along the lines of "Getting something done today for the first time." When I inquired about what specifically was being done, they told me it was none of my business. Please, correct me if I'm wrong, but when you make something public (they have over 1,000 friends), aren't you opening yourself up to questions about your post? If I posted "I ordered a suit online today! :)" and people ask what kind of suit, I'm not going to say that it's not their business because I told the world about it. If I post about something, I am willing to talk about it, no matter what. If I'm going through a hard time and post "Really crappy day today." I expect people to ask why, requiring me to answer.

I guess the moral of my story is that when posting something personal online to the world, expect questions and don't be afraid to answer them. I am in no way attacking this person and I know it was not their intent to make me feel like a D-bag but when they said it wasn't my business, I felt like I was intruding on their life.

Food for thought.
<3 Dane

Today

Today is poopy. I really should get cracking on my homework because I have to work later but I'd rather watch some T.V. and blog, tweet, and update Facebook all day. There's been a lot on my mind lately as well. School is getting strange with the whole executing projects all at once thing. Also, troubles on the personal life front. Since this blog is about my life, I might as well share it with all of you. Someone whom I've been crushing on for a very long time now acts like I'm a nuisance and almost the bane of their existence. I have to stop worrying so much or this whole illusion may crumble. I have to grow a pair in order to keep going on with my life. I'm starting that today. Building up a tolerance to the world. Expect the same person, just wrapped up in a tortilla of "not caring about your problems". I look forward to it.

Weird Music Videos pt. 2

Ok. So this isn't really a music video but it is really weird. There's music in it also, so I guess that counts....

The Meh Feeling

Today I'm feeling "Meh". This means that I'm not happy, not really sad, but just here. Also known as the "Blah" feeling one gets when there isn't really any reason to feel anything. I felt really good about seeing my friends but that faded because they were kinda distant. Almost like I was intruding on their time. Now I'm back to square one and feeling tired, despondent..... It'll go away in a few days. Love you :)

We Are Pilots (a rant about the world)

Our world needs us. All of us. We are one. We are many. We are pilots. Piloting this world to a new level of greatness. Who will rule? Me? You? Charlie Sheen? All of us. We all will work together to achieve that amazing level of humanity. We need each other. We need to live. We need to do what is right for all of us. Keep yourself in mind. Be selfish. what is good for you, will be good for others too. On the way to helping yourself, help others. We must bring the world together. We must stop being so focused on why we hate each other and realize that we are all one in the same. We aren't here to be pitted against one another, we are here to work together and make this world a better place for our children but to get to that point, we have to make it a better place for ourselves.

What if we don't? What happens when we decide that this world doesn't matter? We won't be around to see it go down the tubes. We might be. In our lifetime, death may become a thing of the past. There is no disease, pain, or poverty. What then? What will we do if we use up everything we have here on Earth? Think about what you would do now if you were living here on Earth for eternity. How would you clean it up? What would you do to maintain this planet?

Go then, there are other worlds than these.

Weird Music Videos pt. 1

I figured you'd want to know some things that I like. Weird music videos are pretty sweet. This is the first installment. More to come.

Passion Party

I went to a passion party last night and I realized that my friends are freaky behind closed doors. There was alcohol involved and some stuff that makes your junk tingle. I was afraid clothes would be stripped off and other things would transpire. Orders were placed for certain unmentionables, hugs and kisses were given, necks, ears, and breasts were licked and the night ended with me as the DD and everyone else going downtown. I'm happy though because I got to see a very old friend.....and lick his neck.

Hug me and tell me you love me.

Hanging with friends is amazing. Hanging with them until 2am is even better. Adam, Danica, and Dylan made my night. Danica and I were discussing a man who we both know and he hugged her one day and told her that he loves her. This made my night. That and watching Operation Endgame.

Why?

I'm doing this blog because I promised my friends that I would spend more time with them this year. This is a way to help me keep that promise and document that I am in fact, keeping my word. This first post is going to be boring but I promise you, fun things are coming. This blog isn't just about me hanging with my friends. It's a journey through my life and my mind. Keep in mind, I love you.

-Dane